I haven't been playing well for the U16 and twice I've sub myself out from the game. I've got no idea what's going on with me man. It's like I know I can play but then.. I don't know. Out balls, lousy ones, short temperness, injuries.. all came hounding me. Fuck off sia. I want to play well. I need to play well.

Other than that, I got pissed at her really fast. It's those little things she does that irritates me a whole fuck lot. Fuck, it's the wrong time for me to be feeling this way. I shouldn't hate her, no. But she made me hate her. I'm really sorry.

Ahh fuck. I keep thinking about my granny. I didn't spend enough time with her but she just left me like that. I've been sleeping with her sweater nowadays. Kinda makes me feel good somehow to know that part of her is with me- all mine to keep and not share.

I swear I'll play a whole fuck lot better than I've ever played tomorow. Who cares if we're playing agaisnt PCSS? I'll spike ten nice balls for you to see. I'll give nice balls to Cs so as to make her life easier. I'll make sure we'll win with a very memorable score. And fuck, I think I'm venting my anger in the wrong way.

And yah, WW didn't know this but he cheered me up really good. Thanks bro! And I hope you're reading this ah! You never bleeding tag my board!

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