a taste of suicidal
I'm gonna need your love.
Monday, February 19, 2007 , 0 Comment
Bah, it's been some time already since I last blogged. Okay anyways, steamboat at Jaslyn's was fun but after that was bullshit. I kinda spent my whole time online and I did something really stupid and Imran's really pissed at me for that but he doesn't wanna tell me so but it's so darn obvious so we hanged up after I said I felt sleepy which was a lie because hell, I couldn't think of anything else to say.

I was staring at the penknife just now and I was wondering how it felt when emos cut themselves. Yes, he told me repeatedly not do it and I won't because I'm afraid of the pain inflicted. But I've always wondered, how deep's the cut, how painful and raw it feels, and how it makes you awake, realising reality and making you think straight for once and then regretting it for cutting up your skin. I've always wondered.. but I'm sucha coward that I wouldn't even dare to try.

And Yuhan told me that hating someone is tiring. Well, I think loving someone is too so hey, what's the big fat difference? It's still hate.

Darn, I'm feeling pathetically emotional today. I shall go get ready now.
Boo to Nooraini. What a loser.

I'm indulging in self pity and do not ask me why.
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