I cried during detention.. because you know, I was kinda thinking back, and I just broke down when I thought about it. I was like, Idk. I wrote alot of nonsense in my paper and the guy in front of me was probably shocked when I suddenly asked for tissue. It didn't help when the 2guys started playing emo songs on the piano bcos the lyrics to those songs were exactly how I felt and it kinda hit me there and then.

I broke that promise to get attention. I did get what I wanted, but it wasn't the one I expected. It backfired and I'm feeling stupid now. I should really stop doing stupid things like stop pretending I'm alright and freaking smile all the time when all I want to do is cry. Stop churning up lies to cover up how I feel inside. But it's hard. They think I'm okay just because I smile and joke. They think I'm okay just because I said I am.

Man.. I don't feel like going to school tomorow but I have to; I've promised.

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