Ya'noe, that feeling of just totally giving up on us, it's back again but yet, I don't want to let us go unless there's something going on.

I just feel really down about everything & it's taking a toll on my mind right now. Yuhan tried to comfort me last night, telling me dreams are just the opposite of reality & that I shouldn't be thinking too much. It didn't work at all I guess.

Giving up...
it doesn't seem right at all but that thought lingers around my mind for weeks now. I keep telling myself, no way, we've been through way too much just to give up like that & he's working really hard now to give me a better future but yet, when I make little discoveries about us in the past, I realised, how easy he could lie to me.

But then again, that was in the past. A year has past, & over & over again, he'll tell me he love me too much to even think of 2timing me again. He told me, there wasn't any reason for him to do so. Then again, he didn't have a reason when he cheated on me last year too...

Sighs.
I guess I just need a time out.

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