I've just completed reading Simon Says & I totally love it. Yeah, I know, I should be studying for CSA since I've only studied like what, 2 chapters & my paper's tomorow ;3 Sighs, I have no idea why am I completely utterly unmotivated for exam papers. It's like since.. when I decided my mother died, I totally lost the urge to even pass :(

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Sometimes, I have alot to tell Imran just that sometimes, I don't even have the guts to tell him. It's like, the things I have to tell him are like things I'll prefer to tell my bestfriend but he IS my bestfriend as well and it makes it so much harder to tell him bcos the things I usually want to tell him are like, really hurtful even though I swear, I just want to talk it out, & not write it down on some paper randomly like I did in the past for years and years.. but, sighs, I hate hurting people's feeling ya'noe? People I do love & care for. Not those scums who used me through & through like a few of my family members until I grew up & learnt to say no.

Like just now, I wanted to tell Imran everything, like how fucked up I felt about stuff, about Amelia, about school, exams, basically everything but I guess, I ended up dropping hints like asking him stupid questions which I think, he must have thought nothing about them.

Oh well.. my life's like that.
When I finally do get to meet someone whom I can actually put all my trust on, I hold back onto everything. Sometimes, I can't figure out myself & it amazes me, how he does it.

Ah, back to CSA.

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