There's this really, supper, annoying thing about my boyfriend.

Yesterday, he finished work at 6pm bcos he started earlier, and instead of bloody telling me he finished work like fucking early, he went out with those 2 idiots to freaking Vivo. VIVO. The damn place I wanted to go to to kill time. The damn place, I wanted to be first fucking person to show him around. But no, he said no to me, YES TO KIDS.

Oh did I also mention? The whole of freaking Saturday, he didn't call me. Why? _l_too tired. NB.
I'm really getting really pissed off. Why can't he just bloody call me, out of that 24 hours on Saturday, for even a 5minute call? Bcos too fucking tired? But still have enough energy to go meraip at Vivo? _l_ lah.

Seriously, when he fucking told me he's at Vivo, I didn't know to scream at him or what. It's not like I don't like him hanging out with those 2 kids, but it's just that, HE PLACES THEM, ON TOP OF ME, HIS OWN DAMN GIRLFRIEND, WHO HAS BEEN HELPING HIM EVEN WHEN HE'S IN DEEP SHIT, LIKE FUCKING NOW.

I bet you, Amelia won't be settle thanks. Yuhan can probably get her wish too & me, screw my future up.

I have a boyfriend, who seriously doesn't know how to treat his girlfriend. Can someone please go up to him, give him a bloody kick to his balls, slap his fucking face til it goes really red and his nose bloody, and tell him, who the fucking fuck will give shit about him if I don't? Those 2 kids? What can they do? Give him ciggarettes, and smoke the problems away? Right.

I swear, I really swear, if sayang, you continue doing this to me, I swear I cannot take this. Kalau those 2 kids, are so fucking impt to you, that even calling me is so fucking hard, then why don't you go marry them instead in 4 years aye? They're your fucking god brothers? _l_ my fuck. Dah tau I will fucking worry about you bcos of your living conditions now, but what the fuck do you do? Go fucking around with those 2 kids at Vivo, ignoring my worries, & ME.

I have a limit to my patience and I can tell you now, it's running on really low tank now. If I mean shit to you, you know what I want. If having fun is all you care about having now, you know what I'll say. I've told you before, I'm not like those typical girl like all your ex girlfriends are. I don't go into a r/s for the thrill of it, & I expect my partner to be the same. I'm not saying I want us to marry, and it's a fucking must for me to marry anyone whoever is in a r/s with me but I expect my r/s to at least last & be meaningful.

You'll say sorry to me the moment you read this but have any of your sorries mean shit to me? Bcos you keep repeating them & you very well know I never liked anyone who profusely apologise to me no matter what. You cakap you tak tau jaga hati I, but do you even try? Many a times, I diam, keep quiet, and smile when you do things I totally feel like killing you and you think it's okay?

Why not, the next time, when I've got my job, I'll tell you I start at 4 so I can't meet you for the weekends or it'll be unfair for you bcos I'll just be tired and moody bcos work drained me out. Then on Sunday, I called you to tell you, my work actually finishes at 6, bcos there was a change in schedule. Oops, forgot to tell you. Oh, baby, I'm at Vivo with Ahma right now. And all this time you've been rotting at home, expecting me to be tired out at work.

I bet you forgot calling your Granny. I bet you didn't even have any intentions of calling her at all. Bcos if you had, you wouldn't even be at Vivo bcos I believe with all my shit guts I have in me right now, that everything will go like I said it would if you had called her. Powerless or not, she still is your grandmother & will always be yours.

Now, I'm thinking, do you really want me? Bcos I don't want to be in a one-sided r/s at all.

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