I used to write alot, penning down thoughts I've never told anyone before well, only Imran reads it when I'm asleep -_- but this afternoon, I burnt them all. It felt good momentarily, but right now, I kinda regretted it.

I don't have anymore stuff to remind me of how stupid I was, how easily I trusted people, how fucked up I felt in the past. I know I know, it's spposed to be a good thing, but then again, it just felt like I burnt away something really precious to me..

On the other hand, I burnt it bcos those stuff I wrote about were about my family, my boyfriend, my school. Everything I hated, had problems with, which I shared with no one were penned down in them. Things I'm spposed to love and not hate, spposed to cherish and not waste it.

Sighs, I'm a total emo wreck I know.

I made bf cried again too & it's funny how we both thought of breaking up and ended up still being together. He's worried about Amelia right now & there's really nothing I can do.. I guess. I guess, he's not keeping his word again tonight, tak nampak pun online & I hope he remembers his promise.

& I finally got a job interview! It's weird. I've been whining about how $*%$%# it has been bcos they either want Chinese speaking or at least 2months commitment, which I can't do both, so it's been rather hard for me to get a job to kill time during the hols. I just hope everything goes well =/

My hand is itchy to write more & this is really bad. So many things I wanna let go but I just can't. I've got a decision to make.. & it's a really tough one.

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