We're all sinners, even the good guys.

Farley recently asked me how 2011 has been for me. It's a little too early to say how 2011 has been, since I have another 2 months to go, and so many things can happen within that 2 months.

Life's definitely been better.

When Farley posted me that question, it was like only yesterday that I woke up crying every single day because some bastard prefered to have cyber sex rather than appreciate me. It wasn't long before since I met Eddie during Christmas countdown and had countless heart2heart talks following that. And it definitely didn't seem long enough that I met Farley that night, our crazy night at Arena.

I've lost friends, made new ones. Tried to at least get closer with my family, reconciled with my mother, made a new family and lost them in a few months. I switched jobs, I made Farley switched jobs. I moved out of Adiva's place and into a new home. I went through changes, "grew" up a little and I value family more now.

Ask me again how 2011 has been for me and I'll say I've never shed so much tears in my entire life before. I've emotionally been to hell and back. & honestly, it was worth it all.

There are of course, some things I wished I had done better instead. Like the whole "Facebook/Blog" saga I had going on (still do.. but it isn't so bad now I think) but then again, if that didn't happened, I wouldn't have learnt that sometimes, whatever I say may not necessary mean the same to others like I think it would. (Complicated, but Idk how to phrase this haha) Assumptions, kills everything. & I've learnt to clarify every single doubt I have with Farley or anyone else.

I guessed, 2011 saw me maturing (even if it's really that minimal). I've learnt, morons like my ex & jealous bitches like Dirah, will forever bring me down. So why carry that excess baggage? I've learnt that no matter how you try to be yourself, you'll forever be fake to everyone else. You can't live to please the whole world. & if that's what bringing you down, throw it away.

You live once. & from what 2011 has so far taught me, enjoy life with the best people in your life. Stop hurting them, stop cheating on them, stop trying to cause WW3. (by the way, I'm honestly talking really very generally and the "you" in my context refers to no one in particular.) Learn to wake up smiling, and go to sleep tired and happy. Have a crazy Friday nights, a lazy sleep in Saturdays and family time on Sundays. Save up for a long week getaway at a foreign place with totally different lifestyles from us. Just be happy with your loved ones, and when things go wrong, you can definitely count on them for support.

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it's another 3 days.

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