It's past midnight, which means it's official the last day of 2011. Looking back, I realized now that time has literally flew by. Seemed only like yesterday that I was hanging out with Eddie til last nights, before meeting Farley, before switching jobs, and getting into my current job.

Exactly a year ago, I told myself, no matter what, life must go on even without that bastard. I have to enjoy singlehood (even if it was just for 2 months before jumping into another relationship with Farley and even so, I was with Eddie most of the time until then.) I've shed crazy amount of tears this year and I've probably gone through so much more than an average 20 year old in Singapore ever will have been through.

I've made friends, lost friends and grew closed to some.

This year, I met Farley and his friend, Azmi. I was also introduced to his family + TJ (a very much taboo topic on my blog but this is my blog and it's nothing negative anyway so yeah.) His siblings, his family I guess are the direct opposite of my family and I guessed, I did enjoy myself when I was around with them. Pretty much saw them as siblings I've never had, namely his twin bro and his partner. I guess I was particularly close to TJ, probably bcos he knows the twins better than anyone else and we lived in the same house, just a room away. But things happened (referring to my relationship with his siblings), things soured and everything continued deteriorating down until today. I guess, you can say I chose to "drop and let go" bcos it seemed a lot easier for us to put the blame on me (not of course saying that I am to be blame, partially yes though). Frankly, I miss hanging out with them but yeah.. I'd rather for us to be this way than us consistently fighting.

Career-wise... I finally see myself somewhere. It'll be like a 3 year approach but it'll be worth it. At work, I made new friends - Yati, to name one of them. We're almost inseparable, with the teachers normally complaining to our ROs about it. I share almost everything with her, boyfriend woes, family troubles, financial shit.. And I'm pretty sure it goes the same for her. Probably am pretty lucky that I met people like her during work. I got my IT skills from her too. I can now video edit, photo edit and am slightly better with multimedia stuff now.

As for my family, I'm doing okay. My biological parents are coping well, and I'm on speaking terms with them which I assumed of course, is a good thing. Amelia, alhamdullilah, is doing great. Naughty girl keeps getting into troubles but she's too adorable for anyone to stay mad at her. My sister is, no surprise, going through that phase.

& my love life... is great. Honestly, it hasn't been easy. We get into fights pretty easily, almost over everything but we get over it just as quickly too. He has his flaws, he accepts how fucked up I can get sometimes (or all the time, some of you insists), and never fails to put a smile to my face. He gets along well with both my parents and most importantly, Amelia. I get frustrated with him all the time, and its tiring but no matter what, he knows that I love him too much. It's very tiring to live with his irritating habits i.e. throwing away perfectly good conditioned items just because he wants a newer design but, I'm still learning to accept it. Slowly but surely. It's tough but hey, he accepted my crap!

I've been rambling. Time for some shut eye.
Since I won't be posting another entry tmr on New Year, here's wishing everyone a happy new year to my friends - past, present and future. 2012 will be a fresh year, let bygones be bygones.

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