No school today, so no paranoid feelings? Okay whatever. I didn't study at all today and I'm not planning to. I doubt I'll even regret not studying especially since it's Chemistry and damnit, History. I swear right now, I don't care if I pass or fail but everyone knows now that I'll fail right cos sub zero revision? Yeah.. don't tell me to buck up cos if you tell me to right now, I'll laugh.

So, I've told GirlGirl about Imran and she got yeah, fucking shocked.
Me: Eh, I've got a boyfriend.
Her: OMFG IM SO PROUD OF YOU.
Okay, I kinda summarised the whole conversation but it kinda went like that.

And in ToP, I've managed to get to level40 :DDD Yeah! Bull to Imran who said I was darn ultra slow ^^ and bull to him again cos he pissed me off and then said I love you. Haha.

Okay, so I did a little bit of thinking today and I was wondering why the fuck have I become this way. Is it the exams? Or the prospect of having a boyf? Or or I realised I'm distancing myself agasint everyone. No wait, I'm still the same Nooraini, only much much quieter and some might say, moodier. Yeah, I'm moody Nooraini sweet.

Gah, I started staring at the penknife again and again I was wondering how it felt to cut yourself. No la, I'm not suicidal. It was just a thought 'cause I see people cutting up themselves for apparently weird reasons. Like out of r/s, not in r/s, family shit, school's bull and friendship woes. It's just so weird man. Like why cut yourself! I read somewhere people cut themselves either because
a) they enjoy the pain eg; sadistic people
b) the pain makes them forget their problems which I seriously doubt so because you'll have skin problems added to you if your knife's rusting. Plus counselling mwahaha.
c) everyone's doing it which is another bull
and d) attention baby! -.- yeah, fugly skin for fame woah.

Don't ask me why am I blogging all this shit. It's all in my mind so I'll just type it down. Might as well self entertain myself whilst I doubt what Imran's doing right now. Fyi, he said he's sleeping now cos he has morning shift tomorow but for the many months I've known him, he hasn't slept before midnight no matter what time he has to wake up. I think he's guilty of something because he said he love me 3times before saying bye bye. I told you I'm losing trust in everyone.

I think I'm going out with Imran tomorow but I feel darn lazy to even move my butt. We're spposed to go somewhere so I can study abit whilst he can go on about how sad my life is to be having O's this year and then I can go shoot him with haha, at least I don't have to work tease and then we'll go play catching because he'll try to pinch me but I'll end up pinching him usually because he promised not to leave any marks on me because he's afraid I'll blackmail him saying he abused me. Yeah, I'm lame but I kinda missed all the shit we usually joked about.
3months :D

Well, someone asked me a question the night before and it got me thinking. What many friends? When I only open up to a few? And that few, do they tell the other people about it? Part of me believe in them but hey, who wouldn't love a good gossip? Friends or no friends? Even the 2 people I've told, I still haven't tell them the whole story. And it saddens me somehow. Now I'm just wondering, just wondering no intentions or anything no suspicion or whatsoever, did they spill on me?

No, I'm not okay now.
Goodbye.

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