I hate it when Imran tells me, at the very last minute, that he has work to do.

That.
so.
kills.
my.
mood.
every damn time I hear it.

Just this past week, he promised 3084309812 times he'll spend time with me til night but what freaking happened? Every single damn day I'm back home by 5pm. WHY? Bcos someone didn't tell me he had work. Someone MADE fucking promises then by no choice, have to break those fucking promises bcos he had fucking work. Someone kept FORGETING to tell me he had work.

& what did I do?
Smile, and said,"Oh, it's okay. You wanna rest first?" How fucking lame can I get?

Bcos of all this shit, and bcos my mind has this fucking tendency to run wild, bcos of Imran's past, bcos of all what's been going, I'm thinking, what is he really doing?

Saturday, we were spposed to go to this seminar but I forgot to bring his clothes along. He even asked me when I met him on Saturday, where were his clothes. Then when I said I forgot, he asked, then how are we going to the seminar? Few hours later, he suddenly said, he had fucking work. Like wtf? If he had work in the first place, he wouldn't have time for the seminar. So if he did know we were going to the seminar, WHY THE FUCK DOES HE HAVE WORK?

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Either 1) My mind is totally driving me nuts thanks to Accounting + Econs + lack of sleep or
2) He is really lying to me

But then again, if he did lied to me, if it's bcos of HellGate, I'll be fucking angry. If it's bcos he's fucking flirting around again, only god knows what I'll do to him, if he's just lying to me bcos he's meeting the kids, I'll kill him, if doing anything he's not spposed to be doing, ah fuck it.

Straight to the point,
MY BF IS MAKING ME DOUBT HIM WTFUX.

& does he try to even make me trust him? NO.
Does he even try to call me? NO.
Which leads me, Silv&Fyth could possibly be right afterall.

@$%$^%)Y(%)69
I can bet you a thousand dollars, even if he reads this entry, he wouldn't do anything about it. He'll just fucking shrug his goddamn shoulders and shake his head, telling me I don't trust him and there's nothing he could do about it.

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GUYS ARE SO FUCKING TYPICAL.

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