a taste of suicidal

Super, duper long entry.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008 , 0 Comment

Yesterday was cool :) I had fun literally the whole day.. well, except when I was actually doing the paper lah..

I had the damn Accounting paper yesterday & I didn't have my calculator with me! Until.. I found out after my paper, I had it all along in my bag :( But I did manage to balance the question! Fucking happy. It's like literally my first time doing and balancing it BY MYSELF. :))) & Aishah and me were like the last to leave the class.. and we didn't even realise it bcos we were too busy adding all the debits and credits up and teehee, we both did it XD I just bloody hope I pass.. I don't wanna bloody repeat Accounting! :(((

Syg&I caught Meet Dave too! Fucking hilarious! && window shopping! I saw so many things! Tempted.. but syg said he'd rather me buy from online and he promised ahemahem x)

So when I got back home, got on MSN, chat with Fyth about clothes for like an hour until stepmom nagged at me for like the longest time to get off the computer -_-

&& today, was spposed to visit Granny, but then she called like at 7am(bcos she taught I had school at 8 -_-) and told me she wanted to go visit a sick friend with my auntie and asked if we(Imran&I) wanted to go and I'm like.. ew, no. So yeah.. bf's gonna be like weird cos he wanted to see Granny alot lol.

Oh well, I shall be nice & TRY to cook something for him when I see him later.

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Since Chamber's closing like 2 of its 4 preorders by Thursday, & I've counted the money and all, I've made like $1**! But it's gone now :( bcos I bought clothes rofl. & I want some more clothes, which I blame Fyth D: bcos she was telling me how Lolita and the others were nice and I kept staring and staring at them then, fuck I want them :S

Can't wait for Raya!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$, few more years down the damn road, & I won't be getting $$ but instead, I'll be giving :( Shall treasure these last few years I have D: Oh & Imran will make me like fast for one entire month bcos he knows I haven't been doing so for the last 457498728 years tee hee & we're getting matching outfits! Then there's Syg's birthday after Raya, which means I'm gonna be broke bleh bcosbcos oh well, secret! Cos he reads my blog too :3

I think I'm just rambling on and on in here.. Kinda pathetic that I'm actually doing this but heck, I'm bored, Syg's not online, & there's nothing much I can do.

OHOH, I heard from Yu yesterday, they both got to 4th job alr! :))))))))) GRATS! Even though I know it's been like the longest time since Imran&I were in there :3

Ok now I'm done.

I think.. I shall come back here when I'm bored.

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I'M BORED! D:

Lame yes, but me no care whatcha think of me right now!

Oh then ytd, whilst walking around Tmall with Imran, we were in the Comic Shop & he started raving on and on about how he loved Final Fantasy and blehbleh, I swear I couldn't help but feel a little pissed off when he said that. I kinda mumbled to myself like how all his stupid ex girlfriends loved Final Fantasy esp HER -_- & I think he heard it but I kinda ignored. Anw, everytime I do think of fucking _l_ I get so mad bcos ah fuck it lah. I just get mad ok?

I mean, I don't even need to try to find out things & yet I do, and I found out ALOT of things which I swear I felt like throwing my computer , if I do have the strength to just lift it of my desk & throw it at Imran & if I'm that fucking strong, possibly to Texas too.

Yayaya, it's like since last year but then, _l_ dar here dar there tmd. "Single but not looking?" Wtfux? "He says I'm his angel?" Oh, then I'm your worst nightmare. Attached yet emailing another guy, telling him how you dreamt about how you guys were running around looking for chocolate noodles? -_- HAVE YOU EVEN SEEN HIM? You have feelings for Imran yet you're attached to another guy? Coming to Sg this summer aye? WHERE? Batang hidung pun tak nampak.

& I'm not mad at just that fuck. Imran too -_- _l_ "It hurts me more than you do when you call me dar?" "Tell me, are you attached to so-and-so? Please tell me bcos I knew about this weeks ago but I wanted to hear this from you so the pain wouldn't hurt so much" "I miss you so much @_@" " You will forever be in my heart?" AND YOU GOT FUCKING SHOT AT YOUR LEG? WTF.

Do not ask me how I get hold of all this. I get so mad when I do think about it, which is not often unless 1) we're npcing & suddenly I see this red cap npc who looked like her avatar _l_ 2) Final Fantasy -_- 3) When he says to me, the only other girl who I got really close to besides you, is litorio. & why freaking Final Fantasy, BCOS SHE LOVES THEM TO THE CORE AS WELL #$*)%@

You guys are probably just gonna think hey, I'm being petty and all but then nooooooooooooo, try finding out that your bf has been emailing another girl telling her how much he misses/loves her for like the first 6months in your r/s and you were kept in the dark about it until a year later! Chocolate noodles my fuck. I'll give you a bleeding nose anytime.

I know I shouldn't be bringing this up bcos it's like all over(I think-_-) & I got the satistfaction of labeling her "BITCH" in Imran's MSN before I decided to just delete and block her totally plus, Imran is really good to me now unlike last year but then, the very mention of her totally kills my mood but all I do is smile & curse her in my head.

And I should have really blogged about this like long, long time ago, but ahhh I feel so much better now :) Not that I was moody or anything before.. but I just felt like bitching about Yumi.

Oh, one more thing, if you were to tell me, that all the info I get about them is false, then _l_ right back bcos I know its the truth & Imran knows it too, when he lies to me, no matter how hard he tries, for some god damn reason, I'll always know. It's just a matter on how I'll tell him I know about it -_-

Ohoh, another thing, I can't believe why Slick would wanna defend lito in any way when I do start bitching about her but that was long ago and I barely chat with him on MSN anymore -_-

I think it's funny how I get so jealous easily even though she's so last year rofl. I humour myself sometimes.. XD Bleh, should get my ass to the toilet now! I'm late! :3