I've officially tendered. 8th July's the last day I'll be working under Ferlyn&Allen. Yet.. I don't feel too happy about it.

Maybe partly coz Farley hasn't been fully supportive of me. I had initially planned to work as admin/recep so my working hours are fixed; office hours. Good for me coz I get to have my weekends off which means more time for family, bf and also my online shop. I thought of using this 6mths to build back what I lost so that when I start school term next year, I don't have to work but I still have income coming in. & what's more, I'll have even more time which means I can concentrate better on studies and the online shop. But... Haiz. Farley doesn't believe it's possible. And honestly, I'm beginning to doubt myself.

Job hunting isn't easy- I have to admit that. But constantly telling me that he KNOWS I won't get a job so easily just puts me down. Telling me what makes me thing that my shop will be able to substain me when everything was in a mess when he first met me. Everything he told me last night, it all just was disheartening. To know that he has doubts, that I'll end up not working, living off him..

It's bringing me down but does he know that? What's worse.. He tells me I can do whatever I like. In that tone. Like, whatever lah. Nothing supportive, or even his blessing.

I'll just go back to retail and start from scratch. 15k.. That's his goal. I can just forget about mine.

Screwed up. I will always be screwed up.

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