I told everyone that ever since we went for the pre martial course, you've changed
 Everyone that was concerned about me giving up, they were pretty relief that you've changed. Alhamdullilah they said, now you can concentrate on preparing for your wedding.

Tonight, I decided that I want to take up a 2nd job at night. Idc if I'll be tired or drained out. I need that cash. At least $10k by 1st December. Another $10k the following year. I'm sick and tired of being the one accused of 'spending your money'. Your aunts said I am, you're exactly doing what they said. You spent hundreds on your shoes, on your pants, even willing to spend another hundred yo go clubbing. Is it my fault?! You choose to do your degree now. Is it my fault money is depleting so fast?!

I asked to go out and spend money bcos i'm bored? What about giving me attention, tying up loose ends about our wedding instead of ignoring me?! I need more friends bcos you won't allow me to SPEND YOUR MONEY?! I don't give shit about your money. Wake up, i'm not even eyeing ykir money. I am not even with you for money. Why the fuck so calculative with me?!

I wanna earn that $10k and pay the caterers so you wouldn't say that i suck your money
 I wanna earn another $10k so that i'll live in a house where you can't  tell me i'm living off your money.

I just want to be fucking happy but no one is letting me be.

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