a taste of suicidal
I look up to the sky, and now the world is mine.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011 , 0 Comment
I've been dealth with tons of setbacks, handled some pretty well, and some, are just nothing but disastrous. Emotionally, I suck at managing myself but I THINK I'm slowly getting better.
It's was Hari Raya Haji during the weekends. I had a good time with my family, with bbgirl so willingly taking pictures with us. Adorable girl really. But I guessed, towards the night, it was pretty fucked up with he say she say. Oh well.. I'm no one to say anything.
Btw, checked my stats. People are stalking me! Ok just stroking my ego. But seriously, there are people who are actually keying in my url into search engines. Not that I'm actively updated this boring space with pictures or even doing it on a daily basis and not to mention that ALL the entries are nothing but my boring life. Pretty much means there are actually people who think my life is interesting enough to spice up their boring life. OR there are just a minute number of strangers who just wanna see if I'll post something offensive that they THINK is about them. (PS, it's all GENERALLY spoken, no one in specific)
I'll like to also say that my life is my story, and it's for me and only me to tell (or of course, my family members). My past life is not something to be proud of, but at least I'm doing something about it rather than shrugging it off. If my family and Farley can accept me for who I was, then no one is in the position to even try to bring me down. And to get everything straight, I am not ashamed of Amelia nor am I going around "like it's the right thing" that I have a daughter. Only mothers' would understand the joy a child would bring. Do I regret it? Yes. I regretted it very much that I brought her in at the wrong time but no, I do not regret keeping her because she's a little darling. I've done wrong, but at least I have enough guts to admit and not shrink responsibility. Oh and one more thing, what's with humans and bragging?
Counting down to the end of 2011. I'm gonna make it the best time of my life and no one is stopping me.
It's was Hari Raya Haji during the weekends. I had a good time with my family, with bbgirl so willingly taking pictures with us. Adorable girl really. But I guessed, towards the night, it was pretty fucked up with he say she say. Oh well.. I'm no one to say anything.
Btw, checked my stats. People are stalking me! Ok just stroking my ego. But seriously, there are people who are actually keying in my url into search engines. Not that I'm actively updated this boring space with pictures or even doing it on a daily basis and not to mention that ALL the entries are nothing but my boring life. Pretty much means there are actually people who think my life is interesting enough to spice up their boring life. OR there are just a minute number of strangers who just wanna see if I'll post something offensive that they THINK is about them. (PS, it's all GENERALLY spoken, no one in specific)
I'll like to also say that my life is my story, and it's for me and only me to tell (or of course, my family members). My past life is not something to be proud of, but at least I'm doing something about it rather than shrugging it off. If my family and Farley can accept me for who I was, then no one is in the position to even try to bring me down. And to get everything straight, I am not ashamed of Amelia nor am I going around "like it's the right thing" that I have a daughter. Only mothers' would understand the joy a child would bring. Do I regret it? Yes. I regretted it very much that I brought her in at the wrong time but no, I do not regret keeping her because she's a little darling. I've done wrong, but at least I have enough guts to admit and not shrink responsibility. Oh and one more thing, what's with humans and bragging?
Counting down to the end of 2011. I'm gonna make it the best time of my life and no one is stopping me.
I'm no angel, but you're no saint either.
